Showing posts with label honesty. Show all posts
Showing posts with label honesty. Show all posts

Wednesday, July 11, 2012

If You Really Knew Me, At All

My childhood best friend, Jenni, did a post like this when she was inspired by her friend Kristin and you all know how I like a good bandwagon so…here I am, hopping aboard.

Me

If you knew me really well, you’d know that…

I’m a total clothes-horse.  Like straight up addict.

But I’m also a thrift-store junkie. So that helps. (Or at least, this is what I tell my husband when he looks at my closet.)

I am really critical of my own appearance. I have had a hard time accepting my body or my shape or my face. I want to believe good things about the person I’ve been created to be but I struggle. A lot.

I worry about everything. In fact, the times that I DON’T worry are of such great significance that I usually celebrate them and promptly spiral into a new round of worry about why I’m not worried and about what I must be forgetting to remember to worry about.

I am a lover of God. My faith-walk can be shaky sometimes but my belief in Him never is. God is good all the time. All the time God is good.

I put ketchup on almost everything. It’s a running joke in my family.

I wish I was braver. Or tougher. Or some combination of the two.

I have been known to dumpster dive for furniture. Although, there has been no actual Diving Into a Dumpster. It’s more like Diving NEXT to a Dumpster. In fact, except for an armchair and our sofa, nothing in the house was purchased new. And if our apartment looks more like a flea market than the inside of a magazine, I guess that’s okay.

I love to go to the movies. It’s the luxury I most enjoy. I look forward to the trailers almost as much as the actual film.

Sometimes on long car trips, I pretend I’m in a music video. … Shut up. Don’t look at me with that tone of voice.

When I don’t want to do something, I imagine how I could possibly write a blog post on the topic and it makes it easier. Blogging has forced me to try new things so that this blog doesn’t get stale. That feels like a life metaphor but I’ll let someone else connect those dots. If you know…they want to.

I would do literally anything for my friends. I think loyalty is more important than neutrality and that has cost me relationships. And I don’t care. I’d rather stand up for one friend than have a hundred thousand more.

I love to spend time with other people but the second I’m alone, I obsess over the interactions we had. Was I annoying? Did I talk too much? Did that person feel cared about? I think this makes me a good friend and conversationalist but I don’t trust myself and I don’t let down my guard very easily. I almost always feel like a burden to others.

I cannot wait to be a parent. But I have to wait. And that’s hard, too.

I want to be a tidy, organized person. But I am often messy and scattered.

Sometimes when I get Kyle’s voicemail, I sing songs that I made up on the spot. I think he likes it.

Your turn. I’d love to know more about you!

love, elizabeth

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