Friday, September 2, 2011

Please Don’t Let Me Go SPLAT

As my first year in the PhD program looms, I can feel my anxiety building. It’s like someone has













planted a bomb in my heart and it’s just sitting there in my chest, squeezing and ticking away. I’ve














been having some actual panic attacks lately (something I haven’t had in a long time). If you’ve never














experienced a panic attack, it feels like your chest is getting tighter and tighter, like all the air has gone














out of the room. And this is why Kyle is my hero, for sitting through these with me, for holding my













hand, for breathing with me, for helping me to focus long enough to get out of the loop.





















If life is like
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
walking a tightrope in a circus,
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
the crowd below just waiting for me to fall, then being married













to Kyle
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
is like the safety net below me.
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
It’s the difference between falling and going SPLAT
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
and falling













and being caught.
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
After almost seven years together,
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
thank you, Kyle, for still catching me, for not













letting me go SPLAT.












Source: None via Kyle on Pinterest

What about you? What has your relationship done or been for YOU?
love, elizabeth
PS: Check back soon for pictures from my office makeover! I’m pretty stoked.

8 comments:

Sush said...

Hi,
I've been married for 40 years this December and I've always said my husband is my soft place to land...sort of like keeping me from going splat. Life will be beautiful even in the valleys when you support and love each other as the two of you do.

Hugs~

Alana said...

Aww, this is beautiful.

I feel the same way about my hubby. He amazes me every day with how patient, understanding, and supportive he is. He's such a better person than me, but I'm a better person because of him.

Mrs. Pancakes said...

Awwww Elizabeth...that's such a sweet post. I think since meeting my husband...i've learned to use my voice in areas where i am usually quiet. He totally inspires me!

Megan said...

This is such an adorable post! So glad that you have found your love!

Ashley @ A Recipe for Sanity said...

You will not go SPLAT, I promise! :) You will do just fine in your program. And I'm glad Kyle has been there to catch and comfort you. :)

Becca {A Blonde's Logic} said...

Have you had grad school nightmares yet? I sure did! I'm done with my 2nd week of school and love it! So far no splatting for me! You'll do great! :)

Becca
http://blondeslogic.blogpsot.com

Janet @ Made For This said...

I'm telling you - I love that boy!
And PhD - we will see you soon on the other side of it and you will do blessedly well. God has directed you, He will keep and lead you. And Kyle - well, he is the gift God gave you especially for the times you FEAR falling and going "splat". But for all most wonderful times of your life too.
I love Kyle. Did I say that already?

Karen in Progress said...

Ahhh... I love this post. Congratulations on getting your PhD. I know it's scary, but it will be so worth it.

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